16.9.09


ambition was her death.
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11.9.09

i think a lot about the things i want to remember, that are worth remembering.
today i took a cat nap. literally. ella the cat joined me.
i have a newfound obsession with T.I.. Honestly he is talented. plus he named one of his sons Messiah Y'majesty...
right now, the word opportunity keeps resurfacing and bouncing through conversations. and hand in hand with opportunity is the question of equality.
i think that americans have a false sense of opportunity. we fool ourselves into thinking that every person has the chance, of a lifetime, to prove themselves and create something better. we deny the reality, that is our class system. we aren't all middle class. over 80% of americans will classify themselves as middle class. we are confined but just brainwashed into thinking that opportunity is equal.
and trust me. it has hit me hard this week. we aren't equal. we are capitalists. and that's okay i guess. but it's high time we recognize it instead of living in this mirage.
i believe that everything happens for a reason. but because i believe this, i have to come to terms with the fact that the reason might be that i was an idiot.
i pretty much live at this bookstore in nw dc called politics and prose. and everytime i'm there i think about how amazing it is that i can read. i can learn about whatever i want. it's really beautiful to be able to soak in the world, for better or worse.
some people in this world really suffer. and it's too easy for me to forget that when i'm just living. and the ironic part? i want to dedicate my life to those who suffer. and i still put it in the back of my mind lots of times.
but then again, problems are always forgetable with distance and time.
everything is forgetable with distance and time.

7.9.09






this never gets old...

i had the most amazing week!


i'm offically interning at the Embassy of the Republic of Iraq...
and i'm working for an amazing professor...
and i got to bike ride in the woods...
and my friends are beautiful,
especially in the rain...

and so
from the only socialist you know:
happy labor day
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3.9.09















i was aching for deepness and now that i have attained the conversations that
really matter, i just want my mind to stop hurting and running. life is funny like
that though, we always want what we used to have. simplicity.

as i'm internship shopping, i keep telling myself that it's the small things that
matter. every decision is important. one small thing can change the course of
a life.

indecisiveness will be my death.
or an overdose on cheese.
it's a toss up.
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